Dead Girl Crowd Surfing

[A similar version of this post, in Portuguese, can be found on my MSN Spaces]

Anyways.

I think I have alarmed the people at the WMHC forums a bit. Yes, I'll stay in the chats (I luv you girls waaaaay too much!... and razors), but I can't stay on the boards any longer. Why, you ask?
I don't want to make drama all over this. Very few here know about this LJ and I hope it stays that way. 

1. MCR isn't about the Music/saving lives anymore. Face it. "MCR saved my life... that's the real fucking point of all this" is bullshit now. Now everything seems to be more about who is dating/marrying who. This is just like Pete Wentz vs. Sidekick pictures vs. Hey! Chris all over again. True, TBP is supposed to contain a positive, meaninful message. But honestly, where's the speeches about suicide being BS and girls spitting on the faces os machist guys?
First, when I knew about Eliza not even knowing what "alas" means (besides burning a $100 bill for fun and almost insinuating that G had cheated on Kat), I could barely believe. For Christ's sake, that girl knew the 'Net drama she was stirring up. If Gerard wanted to keep his live *even more* private than he had with Kat (mind you, he told us all he was SINGLE), then fine, but someone should warn his gf that really, stirring up 'Net drama is not even fun. There's something called PRIVATE posts, which would enable all of your closest friends to read about whatever. Don't complain about being "harassed" via AIM, because really who the fuck cares, it's your fault really. What a flippin' show off.
I'm also annoyed because Mikey decides to take the whole Summer off from tour -- really, if someone took such a long time off work they'd be firedd. And, mind you, it's fans paying for him to do that. 
I'm disappointed in MCR for being so drama prone, mind you, where's the Music, and saving Lives?
And obviously on 99% of the Crew. I mean I used to love Meghan so much, but really her dissing on Kat is just wrong, I agree she should stand up for her friend, but really her friend already has the trophy boy, no need to diss on the ex.
I'm pissed off because of Alicia as well (see above).

And really, this had made me realize, I was living a lie in which it was all like "OMGZ DA CREW IS LYK SEW AWESOME!!!!" well to me it isn't anymore. Plus, wth let me get something straight. TALENT is different from hard work, preserverance, luck, and banging guys in bands. That's all I got to say. Yes, Alicia IS talented. I love Alicia. But darlings, Eliza hasn't done anything besides cut hair, fuck Gerard, and stirr up 'Net drama. I've seen people with that hairstyle she "invented" for like, ever, and I've known better hairstylists. 
I really love Miss E and Chris. They are awesome. And yes I love Alicia. 

Besides, why do we keep insulting Jack Vanek, and Audrey whatshername, and Kiki KNAW (reverse that last name), and Hanna whatevershescalled, if they're friends with J*? What makes J* and Eliza Cuts better than those girls?
Nothing, says I.

Just my two cents.

<3
E

P.S.: I'm also figuring so much stuff out in my life. I'm going back to what I really am, listening to the Music I really like. I've been throuh a major id crisis -- I'm glad I'm figuring this out. 

P.P.S.: don't make me repeat it. I don't give a fuck about their lives, let them live them however they want, as long as it doesn't interfere with me. Plus, I'm waaaaay too busy reading "The Philosophy Of Andy Warhol" to bitch about people having their 15 mins. of fame.

Today I'm feeling ranty... mostly because of this.

Like, I have two people who in the beginning I talked to and it was all okay, they had different tastes in some stuff but it was A-OK.
Then, these people start pretending that they like the same things. When it's 110% obvious they don't.
For example, these people telling me that yes, they love MCR oh-so-much. Then one of them starts behaving all teenie over Frank, and talking about Gerard's legs (this seriously scared me, because I don't understand much about evaluating legs), and Mikay's hair and Ray's 'Fro and Bob's beard. I seriously felt like killing her, ESPECIALLY when I agreed to wtach LOTMS with her and she kept making idiotic comments about the guys, LAUGHED at Gerard passing out (why would someone laugh?!), behaved all teeny over Frank, insulted Jamia and talked about how jealous she was of Alicia even though she does't like Mikey and about how Gerard's legs are, according to my "friend", girlish. If she doesn't like MCR, she doesn't need to 1. make idiotic comments when I'm trying to watch LOTMS, 2. pretend to like them and then isult them and 3. behaving like a teenie.

Now, there's this girl who keeps telling me that the stuff I do is soooo cool and that kinda stuff, and then she won't stop IMing me even if my away message says "I'm playing THE SIMS 2". Plus, she was like "OMG I like MCR sooo much they rock". I asked her what her fav song from the first record was, and she said nothing for a while, then said that she doesn't have a favourite and only knows a few songs (the only songs she knows are "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)", "Helena", "Ghost Of You", and "Welcome To the Black Parade"). Then I said "I'm playing TS2, I'm glad you like their songs but my computer gets kinda slow when people IM me while I play TS2". Then she said "oh, I'm playing too.".

I mean, I dunno WHY they do this. If this is to show how much they know about stuff, then they should just be themselves. If they like Britney Spears, well, I hate her so they'll probably know more than me, like the lyrics and stuff. In the very, EXTREMELY unlikely case that it is to make me like them, then it just the contrary. I actually liked those two girls waaay better when they didn't pretend to know and like stuff. I mean, I have a friend who likes Britney Spears, but we hang out and still are friends, mostly because she is a great person. She doesn't call me "weird" and insult me because I like certain stuff, instead, we try to talk about the stuff we have in common, or talk about "neutral" topics, like our lives and giving advice. Even though she keeps saying "Just follow your heart", and I say "Be rational about it", we still are friends.

I know this came out EXTREMELY long, but I had to say this.

I had a girl Donna was name


lawl this song's stuck in my head, which is completely random. O____o


Oh, Donnaaaa


O___o

Would someone please care to explain this?!

you've got this new head filled up with smoke
i've got my veins all tangled close
to the jukebox bars you frequent
the safest place to hide
long nights "spent" with your most obvious weaknesses
you start shaking at the thought
you are everything i want
cause you are everything i'm not

we lay, we lay together
just not, too close, too close
(how close is close enough?)
we lay, we lay together
just not too close, too close

i just want to break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you say
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way

my inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
it talks it says, "you are, you are so cool"
scissor shaped, across the bed
you are red, violent red
you hollow out my hungry eyes
you hollow out my hungry eyes

we lay, we lay together
just not too close, too close
(how close is close enough?)
we lay, we lay together
just not too close, too close

i just want to break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you say
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way
i just want to break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you say
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way

we're gonna make damn sure
that you can't ever leave me
no you won't ever get too far from me
you won't ever get too far from me
i'll make damn sure
that you can't ever leave
no you won't ever get too far from me
you won't ever get too far from me
you won't ever get too far from me
you won't ever get too far

i just want to break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you say
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way (worst way)

i'm going to make damn sure
i just want to bring you down so badly
i'm going to make damn sure
i just want to bring you down so badly
in the worst way, worst way...


I wish i could write lyrics.
&& Yes, I'm making this entry public for everyone to see. I don't care.
Oh, and btw, I dunno if the lyrics are 100% accurate, because I actually went to a website. O.o

<3
Ella

Friends Only.

Best site ever. Here. I'm sooo going to marry it.


Btw, I sounded like a total idiot. WHO IMS people talking about a 101 Dalmatians beach towel that will be replaced by another acrtoon one?! That person must be the randomness. Well, I'll tell ya: ME. That's right. Ehe. I'm so random.

xoxo
Ella

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ROCK ON!!!!!

Something I LOVE doing is randomly browsing around DIY websites, and finding nice stuff to do. Truth be told, I'm not very crafty - clumsyness is something I have A LOT. Buuut I just found this LJ with a post with comments about hardening Gummi stuff for crafts. I decided to Google it just for fun, annnd, ta - ra!

I downloaded this DIY Guide.

xoxo
Ella

I have decided to, hum, KILL my other journal... I didn't like the adress xD so yeah.

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I *finally* started using my webcam. I got it for X-Mas but the deal was, to use it only when i got my own computer for my b-day (I didn't get it for my bday after all) so that it wouldn't be annoying everyone else. Buuut, since I'm on holidays (yay!) && I promised to keep it in my room when I'm not using it, I was allowed to try it. I've taken a lot of piccies, including really funny faces. And, ver, very soon, I'll have my OWN computer. Yay.



I'm bored, so I'm thinking about clothes (that's on my boredom thoughts list).

<3

xoxo
Ella